[] smoked
[] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[] kissed someone of the same sex
[] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[] watched porn
[] bought porn
[] tried drugs

TOTAL: 2

[x] taken painkillers.
[] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] snuck out of the house
[] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die.
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL: 7

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[] been in an accident
[] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL: 5

[] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[] listened to rap

TOTAL: 3

[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x] dressed grunge
[] stole something
[] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[x] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: 7

[x] had a crush on a friend
[] been to a concert
[] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[] installed speakers in a car
[] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 3

[] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper?
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[] gone to court
[] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL: 6

[] owned/rented an apartment/house
[] broke the law in the police's presence
[] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[] hugged a stranger
[] kissed a stranger
[] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
[] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[] been called a bad influence
[] drank and drove
[] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 9

Grand Total: 42 I'm.. a very bad influence?? Am NOT!!

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]



Spent some time with friends today and feel...strange. Like.. I'm not in my own body or something.
I can't wait for Christmas Vacation. Only 12 more days!

Love you Alex <3

Oh. My gosh. It actually happened!!!

I'm going on a date this Wednesday XD

He's a really great guy, very sweet and funny. Most of my friends
don't particularly like him, as I've had this problem in the past,
but he's doing everything he can to change that, for my sake.

BTW - Thank you onee-san, and you know why!!

All I can ask from my friends, as I've said in the past, is try.

Love you guys!!

WISH ME LUCK

I'll be bowing out for a bit ... need some ... some thinking time.

I'll still check messages every day and respond when I have to, but don't
expect any explanations as to what's happening. Sorry if that sounds cold-hearted
and unlike me .... but right now I'm not sure who I am or want to be anymore.

Don't worry about me ... Just like in the past, I'll survive little by little and
become myself again, even if it is a mask to keep my friends from worrying.

Love you all. Keep me in your thoughts, if you can spare one or two moments of your time for me.

-sigh- and to the one who sparked my mood ... don't worry. We're still friends. Don't forget that. I promised, and I want to keep that promise with my dying breath.

So yea, the heartbreak? So wasn't temporary. He shattered me.
Ick. I felt like crap for such a long time. Worthless, nonexistant, crap.

That was for the past 2 weeks. Then, well, someone special came along.

Yes, I'm crushing soooo hard!! The beginning's never been like this
because I've never had to wait for someone I love. I think that'll make
it all the more special and..who knows.. longer lasting? I can only hope.

Wow, it's so amazing what certain feelings can do to you.

I couldn't focus, like, at all in school today because I spent a damn good
part of the day just sitting and thinking... very deeply I might add.

I can't wait to see what happens!!!

Love you all, miss you, and leave me comments!! I wanna see how
everyone is doing!!!!

Temporary. I can only hope with all that is
left of my shattered heart.

What do I have to live for if I have nothing?
He ... was my life; all I had.

I need glue!!!

(PS - glue = friends flying by my house and giving me hugs!!)

Love you guys ... and ... I still love you, M, wether or not that
is the same for you anymore. I think it is. I hope it is.

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